when the studio gives you nowt.

When things go wrong I usually think ok it whats next, how can this be sorted, i'm very practical minded like that. But I am writing this blog after a truly awful studio session, in which I felt I gained no (none whatsoever) artistic gratification, anything to work with and Im struggling to see where to go next. Why is it I approach my solo practical work with such a heavy and morbid mood, this is supposed to be what I love doing but when Im alone I feel so isolated and like everything I make it complete rubbish. After my MA I'm getting my collaboration on, for sure but I need to know I CAN make solo work that I am proud of. Well shitty studio session and the newly announced budget, Im just grateful that there's news of S CLUB 7 getting back together and doing an album. At least someone out there has a good sense of humour.

Today was my hair advert session... and guess what after watching endless ad's on youtube, it turns out there is just not much movement there. My plan was to copy the movements (hair flicks etc) identically and form them into a mini phrase. I watched like a hawk and only found roughly 5 movements which were all the same in each ad. After exhausting the possibility of my limited movements I gave up, I had nothing else, I had planned this for the whole session thinking maybe I would make a kind of 'draft' piece. But alas it was not meant to be. I did have my bag of hair so I played with trying to tie stands together and creating little hair droplets for a while.

For next weeks session I am going to plan lots of things. I will
1) Make a sturdy sculpture
2) Create a hair washing line
3) Write a short monologue about my hair
4) Watch back what I filmed today and try to pry something out of it.
5) By the end of the session be 100% sure about what I will be presenting in 3 weeks time.

whops thats only 3 tasks, and erm I will utilise my collected train tickets to form some kind of time line to the work. (4 will do for now), I've got 6 more days to come up with tasks.

So on a lighter note, it's not all doom and gloom, I'm having sushi for dinner.